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Well, well, well, if it isn’t me blogging again. Lol. I’m baaaack. It’s been a while since I’ve written. I’ve taken this time to live and learn. Just as I thought I’d gotten to a place of complete breakthrough, life said, “But wait, there’s more.” LOL And so, I put on my big girl panties, pushed up my sleeves, and got to work. So let’s see, where do I begin. Since last July, I’ve gone through many transitions in my personal and professional life. I shifted a relationship to one that is more fruitful now because of the safe space that allows for honest and open communication without the pressure to make it something it can’t be. I launched a business that I’ve worked alongside my best friend to bring to life. I took my first solo trip to Tokyo for my birthday, and boy, it was one of the most incredible things I’ve ever experienced. I got to move on my own time, explore a cool culture, eat fantastic food, and cross a Disney park off my bucket list.
In 2023, I’ve learned that I have more work to do in self-love and self-care. Here I thought that naming 2022 the year of me that clearly I had it figured out, but therapy said otherwise, and now I’m on a path to digging deeper and giving myself all the love I try so hard to give to others. It can be challenging. Sometimes it’s hella uncomfortable. It means putting aside my ego at times cause what do you mean I need to look in the mirror and affirm myself? I know this already. Ah, but knowing and believing are two different things. I may see what I’m worth, but self-doubt sometimes has a way of tricking me into not upholding it, a belief that allows me to not settle and stand firm on my boundaries. I must release all the doubt, guilt, fear, and disappointment. Yes, that thing you thought would happen by now has yet to happen. Hell, everything you thought your life would be by now hasn’t manifested yet. Ah, but that doesn’t mean everything isn’t working in your favor, just the same.
I do notary work, and as a part of that work, when I’m done having the client sign, I make it a point to double and sometimes triple-check the docs to make sure we got everything. It takes more time for me to go through each doc carefully, but it’s worth it because I know that when I send the docs back out, it returns to the sender complete. Upon receipt of the completed docs, the deal will be done. My life is like a signing. It’s taking a little longer to dot the I’s and cross the T’s, but when I am ready to return to the scene, be it professionally or personally, I will be complete, and every deal, everything I desire for myself, will be done. That doesn’t make the process any less frustrating at times, but developing the patience and the faith it takes to comb thru everything I am line by line to become this fully formed version of me that I am evolving into will make the success to come more worth it. It unlocks the ability to put myself out there without needing outside validation or allowing my sensitive nature to overpower my tough skin. I am not for everyone, everything I do will not resonate with the masses, but whoever it is for, in whatever ways my gifts can be used, the joy of unapologetically being me is a greater feeling than I can describe. So be encouraged. If life hasn’t played out how you’d hoped, it’s likely because there is more fine combing to be done as you continue to become. You are not denied, just delayed. Even as a work in progress, you are not less than. You deserve happiness and joy right now. You deserve love and hope just as you are. And everything that is to be will be. The things of your past were lessons and stepping stones. May you use them to find your footing and hit your stride. I’m rooting for you, as always. Thank you for joining me on this ride!
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